First Mother's Day

Today is my first Mother's Day. It's a day I've been wanting to celebrate for a long time. When you want to be a mom so badly, each major mom-centered event that you experience stings you a little. Mother's Day is hard, especially when people tell you, "maybe next year it'll be you." Baby showers and kid's birthday parties are tough, too. The hard part is that you don't ever know if you'll be celebrating these occasions. There are a lot of question marks when you want a child so badly, yet don't know if this will ever happen to you. Now my daughter is finally here and I can celebrate the wonderful gift she is to me.

Shawn, Lizzie, and I spent most of the day visiting with my mom and Shawn's mom. I also milked the day for all it was worth by demanding that things be done for me because of my new mom status. Lizzie also bought me my first Mom's Day gift -- a picture frame with a photo of the two of us in it.

I also can't help thinking of Jessica today. While I am experiencing all the joy of this day with my brand new daughter, she is grieving her loss. I sent her a card letting her know that I was thinking of her and that I appreciate her very much. After all, because of her, I'm a mom today.

-- Lisa